Wow, I am shocked.  Doc has been on night float for 2 nights and I have not felt resentful at all!!!  This is pretty odd.  I have gone through this up and down awkward feeling for 2 years now.  I get ugly, resentful and impatient with him usually the day before night float starts and then for about 2 or 3 days until I get into the “rhythm” of not having Doc at home in the evening with me. 

Now, for those of you who do not know what PNS is…read this. 

Anyway, I am not sure what to attribute this change in feeling to.  The only thing that I can think of is that my life has been much more organized lately (since I started a flylady-ish life).  I am working on 3 weeks of a mostly organized house.  So far everything is working out.  I have still been making my bed and Big Brother’s everyday.  I have been unloading the dishwasher every morning and washing a load of clothes almost every night.  Big Brother and I “race” to do Hot Spots together (and we have lots of fun doing this).  He doesn’t fight me on putting his stuff up as long as I “race” him.  I have had to work him a little one time, but in the end he won the “race” and all was good (and neat)! 

Another possible reason that is coming to me right now is that since Baby Boy has gotten his tubes, he has not gotten a fever that will keep him out of school.  He has gotten an ear infection, but the ear is able to drain and doesn’t cause pain or fever.  (we are currently dealing with that–apparently we did not do the drops long enough).  One problem that we always had to worry about is “what if Baby Boy gets sick during Night Float week?”  The problem was that I would have to get a sub, take off work, explain to my very understanding boss, and take one or more daily pay deductions because it is difficult for Doc to take off during this week.  Knowing that this was a possiblity always caused a little underlying stress, I think.  (Even if I didn’t really realize it)

Regardless of what has changed, I am SOOOO thankful.  I know Doc is also and probably also the boys.  It is never fun when mommy is not in a good mood.  I’m not overly mean, just really snippy over everything.  I can hear the tone and what comes out, but it is like verbal vomit–I cannot stop it.  It has been wonderful not to feel this way this week.

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